Holding a grudge, and endlessly postponing making peace
By Mcsquirtle Story ID: 49
I used to practice Aikido, a martial art, since I was about 12. I really respected my master and he was like a grandfather to me especially since i never knew mine.
When I was about 17 I had a disagreement with him over something stupid I cant't even remember. Me being an idiotic teenager I left the dojo and never returned.
Soon after, I decided i would go back but injured my knee and decided that postponing this return wouldn't really be a big deal. However, before I recovered he had some financial trouble and changed the dojo to another place and I told myself it was too far to go there just to practice.
One year later I got into college and found out that the dojo was just across the street and started thinking i should go there to at least apologize to him although he had already forgiven me.
I kept postponing this because I was afraid to face him after almost two years, always making stupid excuses such as having exams next week, having really important (lol) meet ups with friends, etc.
This went on until today, 3 years later, for the past few months I've been telling myself that, when the semester ends, I should set things right with him and other people i haven't seen for a while.
An hour ago I opened my facebook to see a message notification from him, It was his wife, telling me he is dead from a sudden heart attack and that she knew he loved all of his pupils and would have wanted me to know.
As I type this I'm thinking of all the stupid excuses I made not to visit him and wishing I wasn't such a lazy coward.
Someone told me once not to go to bed without at least saying sorry to the people you love, now all I wish is that I had. If anyone is in a similar situation don't waste your time and resolve your issues with the people you love before the day ends.