The Love Struggle
By darklyguy Story ID: 31
Valentine's day. Today is the day most people are looking forward to at least those who are couples.
I myself are on my way home, recently quit work for the day.
Am i not excited for this day? How could i be, it's not like i'm in a relationship or anything it's not like there is something special about it. Yet i feel so empty inside, like a piece of me is gone, may just be the weather that's affecting me.
I should buy some milk before i go home so i can atleast have something to eat with in the morning.
Why am i like this, why do i still bother myself with this feeling, i should get my head straight but the heart won't listen, like it has its own thoughts which is beyond my control.
As i was walked near the store with distracted thoughts i mistakenly stumble upon a girl.
I've never seen a girl like her, her looks just blew my mind away. As i was amazed by her looks i didn't notice that made her drop her purse. I quickly got a hold of myself together and bent over to pick up the purse and hand it over to her. I apologized for walking in to her, but i couldn't hear what she was saying, i was just so amazed my heart started pumping more than ever and a warm sensation went throughout my whole body.
The girl lay her hand on my shoulder which made me snap. She said it was okay that i mistakenly walked into her.As soon as i shaked my head i walked straight into the grocery store.
What have i done, is this how i am? Why couldn't i be more polite, should have asked her name at least. Well i guess it's too late now, i blew the slightest chance i had to make this day better but i blew it.
While i was walking around in the store looking for some milk i saw her standing at the meat section.
Is it her, could it be she was heading here as well?
Should i go talk to her? No i shouldnt it will be awkward probably. I just want to go my way but somehow i can't resist myself from the thought of walking up to her. My palms are sweating, why are they sweating damn it.
The milk in my hand became warm from all the burning sensation i have inside.
She walks up to the cashier to pay for her groceries and i still stood still and looked at her when she was about to go away. I quickly moved to the express cashier so i could reach to her before she leaves.
She starts walking away and i'm just stressing myself out on an express machine. I could see how the doors to the grocery stores open as she was about to leave the store.
I quickly ran up to her.
Wait! i shouted.
She turns around. She looks directly into my eyes, why can't i handle i direct face to face contact, i need to get a grip of myself. As i took a big breath i asked her of her name.
Jessy she replied with a smiling face.
I yet again asked for forgiveness for earlier incident. She responded gratefully and said that's nothing i should worry about. I only have this chance to make this right i thought to myself. I builded up my courage and asked her out for a coffee if it was alright with her.
She responds with an cheerful yes!
The empty feeling i felt earlier today felt is no longer present, i guess all i needed was a warm touch from an girl. Even Though the day started badly it ended up good. I guess you just have to be yourself and build up the courage to do what is needed in an awkward situation